Recap, recap, anyone, Bueller? Crickets.
Well, life has slowed down a tiny bit and I'm finally getting some time to finish up the recap of Camp Creative. I imagine you've already ready about some of the things we did through Wednesday so I just briefly wanted to let you know how we finished things up at camp.
Thursday
Thursday was our music day. The team from Baylor had several projects designed to bring out the "musician" in each camper. The younger kids began by making several musical instruments. They made harmonicas from popsicle sticks, kazoos with our leftover toilet paper tubes, and shakers with paper plates.
When possible, we try to purchase supplies for the art projects in country and the beans for the paper plate shakers were no exception. Unfortunately, what the Baylor team had to learn the hard way, was that beans purchased at the local (Chinese run) grocery stores, known as the chiney, do not carry very fresh beans. By the time we went to work with them on Thursday, the supply of beans were full of bugs! Good thing were weren't trying to cook with them. For the most part, we just roll with the punches and we used the beans anyway. That's what going with the flow is all about. :-)
After the campers finished their instruments, it was time to test them out. The service group did a great job with leading the kids in song and even in a story of the 3 Little Geckos and the Big Bad Jaguar (a version of the 3 Little Pigs). These were some great opportunities for the kids to get out a little bit of energy too. Since the musical instruments were some simpler projects, the kids had extra time at the end of the morning to get out the paintbrushes again and work on their inner Picasso. Painting is almost always a favorite activity of our campers.
The older campers got to use this day to work on some projects suited for them. They used toilet paper rolls & pipe cleaners to design their own insects. They also got to work with scratching tools to make designs on crosses and their very favorite--God's eyes--made with yarn and popsicle sticks. Year after year, the older kids love working with yarn. Once they got the hang of it, several of them enjoyed making multiple God's eyes.
Friday
The last day! It's always bittersweet when we get to the last day of camp. We're usually pretty worn out by then but knowing we've come to the end of an extremely successful week is really what brings me joy--and making it to Friday is safe to assume it's been a success. Things ran pretty smoothly on Friday. The youngest campers started off making sea turtles with egg cartons as shells. Then they moved on to paper plate masks. The older campers got to work on soda tab bracelets again this year. Making the bracelets usually takes the kids a little bit to get a the hang of it but once they do, it becomes a great opportunity to work together. The kids show each other how to make them until everyone knows what they're doing.
We spend a lot of time on Friday finishing up with things. We make sure each group has a selected 'artist of the day' and 'best behaved camper' who then get a certificate and first pick from the Prize Pile. After that, we make sure every camper gets a turn to pick from the prizes. This year book bags and plastic tiaras were the hot items to get, followed closely in second by Spiderman & My Little Pony Happy meal prizes. I like to collect flip flops every year and include those in the prizes. It may have taken me until this year to fully realize that, while flip flops are extremely useful and necessary, they're sort of like a kid getting underwear for Christmas; not exactly the most desired prize to take home. Needless to say, of the 50 pairs brought down, every pair found a home.
The highlight of the last day for everyone (for many, the highlight of the week) was snack. Each camper got an ice cream cone! We did this last year too and in the days leading up to Friday, we had many kids asking if we were going to have ice cream again this year. It really seemed like a nice way to wrap things up.
Having the team from Baylor down to help this time, along with Andy, really helped to free me up for other business tasks. This year, we were able to do something we've never been able to do before. At the end of camp on Friday, we were able to debrief with our volunteer teachers and my camp co-coordinator, Faye. This seems like commonsense but we've just never been able to do this in the past--there's always been too much work to do just to clean up and clear out on the last day. Getting feedback from the teachers was amazing because they are the ones who work more closely with the campers than myself. We gained so much insight from them and moving forward, I am confident that we have some plans and tools in place to really make Camp Creative become even better.
As camp wraps up, the leftover supplies get divided up among the volunteer teachers who in turn can use those supplies & project ideas in their classroom the next school year. This is an important element in our goals for Camp Creative--to help keep the arts going throughout the year & to enable others to benefit their community.
This year we also collaborated with the Baylor team over lunch at camp's end. We got a lot of wonderful feedback from them too. They really were instrumental this year in making camp such a tremendous success. They helped with so much of the planning, the supply gathering and the work. They came in with a shared vision of what this experience should be for the service team and more importantly, the camp as a whole and we are forever grateful for the ways in which they helped to transform Camp Creative to be even more successful.
The highlight of the week for me was when we went to dinner that night with some missionary friends and I saw a camper of ours adorned in her homemade beaded necklace and flip flops that she got at camp this week--I'd call that a success.
That's it for camp!
We're already gearing up for next year and we look forward to working with the teachers and, especially the children, in Belize again.
Tuesday, October 6, 2015
Monday, August 3, 2015
Recap of Camp Creative 2015 part 1
Hello all!
We're back from Belize after an
extremely successful week of camp. Some of you may have kept up with
us on our facebook page, which is great. We thought we'd use this
space to give a slightly more detailed recap of our week in service,
along with more photos, including some we did not have the space to
post on our facebook mission page. So, if you want to know what we
did all week, read on.
Saturday-Sunday
After a lengthy 17 hours of travel to
the airport in St. Louis, a layover in Houston, a ride to the bus
station in Belize City, and a bus down to Punta Gorda, I (Julie)
arrived at 9 pm on Saturday night ready for, well, bed. Bright &
early the next morning, at 7:30 am, I attended mass at our old parish
which was a great way to feel 'home' again. 7:30 am is the only
service offered on Sunday mornings as the local priest has to then
travel to say mass at 3 other churches in villages throughout the
district. (Those villages are only able to have a full mass once
every 6 weeks and each is on a scheduled rotation.) After visiting
with the priest and some church members, I had the rest of the day to
prepare for camp. I met in the afternoon with my in-country
co-director, Faye (aka Teacher Faye), to go over logistics for the
week and to review our registration, which was currently at 63
students. For dinner I had my first meeting with the group from
Baylor University. We were able to get to know each other a bit
better, talk about logistics, and prepare ourselves to be working
together for the rest of the week. This was very exciting. We
finished up dinner and then I headed over to meet Andy at the bus
stop, as he had been traveling all day Sunday. It was at this time I
learned that he didn't have the privilege of taking the express bus
because they do not run on Sundays. Instead, he had to travel almost
an hour longer (for 5 ½ hrs total) on an overcrowded school bus with
no a/c, and windows that didn't close properly when it rained. It
was at this point, that I became very thankful I had traveled on
Saturday's express bus, in the comfort of a/c—it can get hot with
60+ people crammed on to 1 bus.
Monday
We started off the week with a 3 project rotation which gave the kids
an opportunity to work in groups to make our awesome Camp Creative
sign, create name tags, and design their own drawstring day packs
which they could then use for every day. At the end of camp each day, the teachers select one camper from their group as Artist of the Day and one camper as Best Behaved. Those kids receive a certificate and get to pick from the prize pile--back packs, spiderman goggles, and princess tiaras were top choice for most campers.
We were also visited for the second year in a row by Love FM, a Belize national TV/radio station. They took pictures and interviewed people. It's good to spread the news about good programs and happenings in the country and they love what Camp Creative brings to the community.
In the afternoon, Andy stayed back to handle the business side of things. Faye, the Baylor group, and myself drove out to LOL
Children's Home to introduce our first ever mini Camp Creative to the
kids living there. I think we were a bit surprised by the number of teens living at the home but we worked the projects out to be enjoyable even for them. The kids took a bit to get going but once they did, they had some really incredible designs on their drawstring bags (to protect the identity of the children living at LOL, we are not allowed to show their faces in photos).
Tuesday
Today the Camp Creative sign the kids painted was all finished and dry. Andy found a ladder and managed to hang it high up on the front of the building so that it could be seen from the road. We also hung up a few photo collages of last year's camp and took group photos of each class this year in front of the sign. We get a lot of returnees and they all enjoyed getting to look at their pictures from last year. The kids made pencil holders out of salt dough that the Baylor group mixed up. They had fun making them but alas, salt dough does NOT dry in 95% humidity. They also mixed up plaster of paris and put together come fun mosaics & designs.
The low of today: learning that one of our campers had tried to climb the soccer goal post during break time and cut his hand down to the bone on a pin sticking out of the post--requiring 15 stitches (which is probably the equivalent to 30 stitches in the states). This weighed heavily on us, we felt so bad, but thankfully his mom wasn't angry with us and he was able to return to camp by Thursday. The high of today: I got to return to LOL Children's Home to teach cake decorating to the teens. One girl had learned some skills in a recent class at school and was eager to learn more--she helped Andy mix up the icing we were going to use for decorating. We used this opportunity to encourage her to help some of her peers as we began the instruction. The confidence & excitement in her was awesome to see. Despite having little knowledge of cake decorating, Andy was the perfect assistant and he helped to move things along smoothly. The kids LOVED learning to decorate cakes and even the boys decided to take a stab at it. I LOVED getting the opportunity to work with the kids. So much of what I do for Camp Creative is more behind the scenes and this was a real reward for me to be able to get back to working with kids.
Wednesday
By Wednesday we had 103 campers registered, the most ever to attend Camp Creative! It was at this point that I was reminded of how incredible it is to be working with the service group from Baylor and to have some great local teachers volunteering in the classrooms. Camp Creative could not have been so successful with 100+ campers without all of their amazing help and input. Wednesday turned out to be a hodge podge of activities. The younger kids beaded necklaces & bracelets while the older kids enjoyed making god's eyes. Both groups made sock puppets and raced paper airplanes. The Baylor group brought out some parachutes and the kids LOVED playing with those at break time.
In the afternoon Andy & I rode out to Big Falls village with the professor from Baylor who volunteers for TFABB (Teachers for a Better Belize). She and her daughter wanted to visit with some preschool teachers that she knows. As an added bonus the professor's daughter, who is 10 and on her first trip to Belize, got to meet her penpal, the daughter of one of the preschool teachers. It was great to see them connect. In case you were wondering, even 10 year olds can be a big help on service mission trips--she was working right alongside the college students. Andy & I got to reconnect with the preschool teacher, Cecily, and her husband George while we were there. Andy had worked with them at teacher workshops and got to get to know George when they traveled together to a conference in northern Belize. Our family had been to their farm a few times for dinner and visits when we lived there. Even though George was in the middle of chopping down overgrowth along his property line when we showed up, he didn't mind stopping to say hi and getting to reconnect. Within minutes we had plates of chips & dip, sodas, and beer offered to us and we stayed for probably a couple of hours.
It's the little things like this that made a big difference this time around. Last year, I was working long hours catching up on prep for the next day. This year, especially with Andy there too, we had a far greater opportunity to work on building relationships, making connections, and even to reflect--what a better experience it makes for.
In an effort to not drag on too long in one post (if you're even still reading this), we look forward to blogging again with a wrap up of the week. Thursday, Friday, and the rest of our trip were rewarding and exciting too.
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
Check out the Updates
Hey blog watchers,
We see that you are following us and checking in for updates. We've been using our Facebook page for more real time updates and daily postings of pictures and such. We've been so busy with everything here that it is really the quickest and easiest way to connect right now. Good news is that you don't have to be "on Facebook" to access this. We have it set up so that anyone can view it, even if you are not a Facebook user. Just click the link on the right of our blog or click this link.
https://www.facebook.com/kuhnertfamilymission
Thanks for all your interest and support. We plan to have some more formal blog posts/reflections in the future as well.
We see that you are following us and checking in for updates. We've been using our Facebook page for more real time updates and daily postings of pictures and such. We've been so busy with everything here that it is really the quickest and easiest way to connect right now. Good news is that you don't have to be "on Facebook" to access this. We have it set up so that anyone can view it, even if you are not a Facebook user. Just click the link on the right of our blog or click this link.
https://www.facebook.com/kuhnertfamilymission
Thanks for all your interest and support. We plan to have some more formal blog posts/reflections in the future as well.
Friday, June 26, 2015
So Many Questions
Well, here it is, in just 24 hours I will be landing in Belize City. After going through customs & paying a few duties for the supplies I brought in, I'll take a taxi over to the bus station where I'll wait 3 hours to catch the "express bus" to Punta Gorda (cause the regular bus is not air conditioned and is a longer, more miserable ride). After 16 hours of travel, I should arrive safely in Punta Gorda. As you can imagine, Saturday is my least favorite day of the trip.
I've done this trip solo once before and after living there, I feel pretty comfortable in Belize. However, there are naturally some anxieties that come with such a lengthy amount of travel.
But, there's a twist: several weeks ago when we found an extraordinary deal on airfare to Belize, God laid it on someone's heart to cover the cost of a plane ticket. Since my ticket had already been purchased, and the situation seemed to be right, we moved forward with purchasing airfare for my husband. Andy will have to travel a day after me and return a day sooner but beyond that, we felt this was a great opportunity for us and more importantly, for the work we do in Belize.
While I know this will be a good thing for our work, it also inevitably adds a new layer to the picture. 3 kids have to be delivered to 2 different camps while 2 kids need childcare for 10 days and all 5 need childcare at the beginning and the end of the trip (from 2 different family members). Oh and did I mention that currently 1 child is feeling ill?
There are so many things to worry about. Will my children be healthy, safe, and get where they need to go in my absence? I still have packing to finish, am I remembering the essentials, the things I must have that can't be purchased in country? Travelling to Belize and running a camp can be costly and we currently do not have enough cash in our bank account to cover all the costs of camp & travel. How are we going to pull this off? The more I ask these questions, the more anxious I feel.
The solution: stop asking questions!
It sounds crazy right? Of course it does but then I am reminded to trust. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Prov. 3: 5-6. A good friend of mine shared this with me last week and although I try to make this my life's mantra, I still needed to be reminded of it--often. There are a lot of times in my life that I've chosen the 'least desirable' path by doing not what I want to do, but what I feel called to do. Things may not have even turned out the way I'd hoped. Yet in spite of that, God has always worked out the details and goodness and peace have always come from it.
This situation is no different. I know that, I just have to remember to listen to that.
I like to think I'm getting better at that. I haven't asked those 'worry' questions nearly as much this time & (no shocker here) I feel a lot less anxious this time. One way or another, it will work out because I'm not in charge.
In the mean time, we would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers as our entire family makes sacrifices to have our work in Belize be a success this year.
We look forward to keeping you updated this week as time, and internet access, allow.
p.s. as a shameless plug--we are holding a Thirty One products online fundraiser. 20% of the sales will go towards making Camp Creative a success. Here's the link if you are interested but the fundraiser sale ends TODAY (6/26): www.mythirtyone.com/651239/shop/Party/EventDetail/8369176
I've done this trip solo once before and after living there, I feel pretty comfortable in Belize. However, there are naturally some anxieties that come with such a lengthy amount of travel.
But, there's a twist: several weeks ago when we found an extraordinary deal on airfare to Belize, God laid it on someone's heart to cover the cost of a plane ticket. Since my ticket had already been purchased, and the situation seemed to be right, we moved forward with purchasing airfare for my husband. Andy will have to travel a day after me and return a day sooner but beyond that, we felt this was a great opportunity for us and more importantly, for the work we do in Belize.
While I know this will be a good thing for our work, it also inevitably adds a new layer to the picture. 3 kids have to be delivered to 2 different camps while 2 kids need childcare for 10 days and all 5 need childcare at the beginning and the end of the trip (from 2 different family members). Oh and did I mention that currently 1 child is feeling ill?
There are so many things to worry about. Will my children be healthy, safe, and get where they need to go in my absence? I still have packing to finish, am I remembering the essentials, the things I must have that can't be purchased in country? Travelling to Belize and running a camp can be costly and we currently do not have enough cash in our bank account to cover all the costs of camp & travel. How are we going to pull this off? The more I ask these questions, the more anxious I feel.
The solution: stop asking questions!
It sounds crazy right? Of course it does but then I am reminded to trust. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Prov. 3: 5-6. A good friend of mine shared this with me last week and although I try to make this my life's mantra, I still needed to be reminded of it--often. There are a lot of times in my life that I've chosen the 'least desirable' path by doing not what I want to do, but what I feel called to do. Things may not have even turned out the way I'd hoped. Yet in spite of that, God has always worked out the details and goodness and peace have always come from it.
This situation is no different. I know that, I just have to remember to listen to that.
I like to think I'm getting better at that. I haven't asked those 'worry' questions nearly as much this time & (no shocker here) I feel a lot less anxious this time. One way or another, it will work out because I'm not in charge.
In the mean time, we would really appreciate your thoughts and prayers as our entire family makes sacrifices to have our work in Belize be a success this year.
We look forward to keeping you updated this week as time, and internet access, allow.
p.s. as a shameless plug--we are holding a Thirty One products online fundraiser. 20% of the sales will go towards making Camp Creative a success. Here's the link if you are interested but the fundraiser sale ends TODAY (6/26): www.mythirtyone.com/651239/shop/Party/EventDetail/8369176
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
Back To Belize, Again.
While some of you have still been checking on our blog, we haven't exactly been active in our posts. Fail.
Anyway, we just wanted to give you a quick update (we'll post more later, we promise). I (Julie) am going back down to Belize this summer to direct Camp Creative. This year, a representative from one of the departments at Baylor University contacted me about bringing a service group down to work with us at Camp Creative. We could not be more happy to be working with this enthusiastic group. The best part about this, it allows us to expand and grow Camp Creative. This year, we will be able to bring a mini-camp opportunity to a local children's home, LOL Children's Home, that serves 35 kids, in addition to the kids we normally serve at our day camp. I've also been asked by the orphanage 'mom' to teach the girls a cake decorating class. I'm thrilled to give these girls an opportunity to teach them a craft that they can actually use in the future.
I am currently looking for cake decorating supplies, bags, tips, couplers, and icing gel color, to donate to the children's home. If you have any of those supplies or wish to purchase any to donate, we would be most grateful. This children's home operates on a tight budget and survives on their own donations so I'm really hoping we can bless them with these supplies.
While I plan to give more information, including ways you can help if you wish to, I wanted to let you know about an opportunity to come down to help. American Airlines is currently offering a sale on their airfare. St. Louis rountrip to Belize City is only $382! That is the cheapest price we've seen since they offered a sale 3 1/2 years ago when we lived there. If you feel called to help with kids and creativity, we would welcome your help at Camp Creative. The week of art camp will be June 29-July 3. I'll be heading down the Saturday before and staying several days afterwards for some much needed "down time." Those are the dates that I know are on sale but quite possibly, there is some flexibility on the dates at that price.
Think about it, pray about it, and if you feel called to come down, let us know. If you want to help in any other way, let us know that too.
We're currently exploring some fundraising options for us to help cover the cost of expenses for the camp, as well as travel down there for myself. We'll let you know where we get with that and post any opportunities on our blog.
Thanks and God bless.
Anyway, we just wanted to give you a quick update (we'll post more later, we promise). I (Julie) am going back down to Belize this summer to direct Camp Creative. This year, a representative from one of the departments at Baylor University contacted me about bringing a service group down to work with us at Camp Creative. We could not be more happy to be working with this enthusiastic group. The best part about this, it allows us to expand and grow Camp Creative. This year, we will be able to bring a mini-camp opportunity to a local children's home, LOL Children's Home, that serves 35 kids, in addition to the kids we normally serve at our day camp. I've also been asked by the orphanage 'mom' to teach the girls a cake decorating class. I'm thrilled to give these girls an opportunity to teach them a craft that they can actually use in the future.
I am currently looking for cake decorating supplies, bags, tips, couplers, and icing gel color, to donate to the children's home. If you have any of those supplies or wish to purchase any to donate, we would be most grateful. This children's home operates on a tight budget and survives on their own donations so I'm really hoping we can bless them with these supplies.
While I plan to give more information, including ways you can help if you wish to, I wanted to let you know about an opportunity to come down to help. American Airlines is currently offering a sale on their airfare. St. Louis rountrip to Belize City is only $382! That is the cheapest price we've seen since they offered a sale 3 1/2 years ago when we lived there. If you feel called to help with kids and creativity, we would welcome your help at Camp Creative. The week of art camp will be June 29-July 3. I'll be heading down the Saturday before and staying several days afterwards for some much needed "down time." Those are the dates that I know are on sale but quite possibly, there is some flexibility on the dates at that price.
Think about it, pray about it, and if you feel called to come down, let us know. If you want to help in any other way, let us know that too.
We're currently exploring some fundraising options for us to help cover the cost of expenses for the camp, as well as travel down there for myself. We'll let you know where we get with that and post any opportunities on our blog.
Thanks and God bless.
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Back to Belize
Back to Belize! Well for Julie anyway. As much as we all dearly miss Punta Gorda--even our 6 year old still regularly asks when he can go back--it just isn't financially feasible for our entire family to return. One thing that is and has been most important to us is that our efforts down in Belize have a lasting impact. The art camp we created, Camp Creative, is now in its 3rd year. As a couple, we decided that it would be a good idea for Julie to return this year to help ensure the program's long term continuity. And so, she will be departing for Belize on Saturday, June 28th to help with the week long art camp.
We've had many people ask "how can I help?" Currently, there are 3 ways you can help. First, you could pray for us as we continue to work out the logistics of everything, and of course for safe travel as "mom" leaves home for 10 days. Secondly, you are more than welcome to contribute financially. As I'm sure you can imagine, there are many expenses that are involved with providing a camp to as many as 100 kids, while travelling there to do so. Currently, the best way to make a financial donation would be to make it directly to us as we no longer receive donations through the Jesuits.
Lastly, we could use help by donating some of the supplies that Julie plans to take down to Belize to use for her art projects. She has compiled a rather lengthy "wish list" of items needed to help complete the 13 projects that she has planned for the week. To find that wish list simply scroll to the top of this page and click on the Wishlist tab. There you will find a very detailed list of everything we need to help make this camp a success. If you can contribute in any way, please contact us. We want to be sure we don't receive 7000 foam stickers from 12 different sources. You can let us know in the comments section below the wishlist, in the comments section on our facebook page, Kuhnert Family Belize Mission, which is linked on the right of the page, or you can contact Julie directly via email, kuhnertj@hotmail.com.
With your help, we can make this another year with one of a kind experiences for the children living in Punta Gorda Belize. Thank you for all the support you have given us so far, no matter how that looks. We wouldn't be able to keep helping if it weren't for you.
Friday, April 26, 2013
My Glasses Really Could Use a Good Cleaning
Life is a matter of perspective. We can only see the world through the glasses we've been given. Our upbringing, where we live, who we interact with, all affect how we see the world. Though, I would argue that once in a while our glasses get dirty and it's up to us to make them clean and clear again.
After returning to the US, now nearly 9 months ago, I've realized how much and how easily those glasses can affect how I view the world. A year ago my family and I were living on less money than we are now yet, we were wealthy by our community's standards. In fact, there were times when I would feel embarrassed by my family's apparent wealth. If we needed something, I mean really needed it, we could purchase it. Yet, somehow it amazes me how little we did in fact need when we lived in Belize. I sure do seem to think I need a lot more things now.
Since we've been back I realize how much I've grown accustomed to be surrounded by wealth here. I live in a community in St. Louis that is comprised mainly of middle to lower middle class people. We have a community food pantry about 1 mile down the road. Wealthy? Huh? Middle and lower middle class don't sound wealthy to me.
We are a single income family of 7 surviving on a teacher's salary. Our budget is TIGHT. I look at our bills this month and they just don't match up with our income. I've already found myself back in the routine of feeling "poor." We need a new vacuum cleaner because the used one we recently purchased broke. The check engine light has been on in one of our cars for two weeks now. We're rehabbing our 80 year old bathroom and we've run out of funds to finish it right now. Whoa is me! Tuesday I found myself nearly brought to tears when I saw the fuel light pop up on my car--$75 for a refill. And then as I headed right for the gas station it occurred to me--if I were in Belize and I needed gas for my car but didn't have the cash to fill up what would I do? I'd do what everyone else of the minority of who are blessed to even own a vehicle in Belize would do--I'd shrug my shoulders, pull out my wad of cash and coins that I did have, and fill my tank with a few gallons of gas. End of story, no fretting, move on. There were Belizeans all over town whose car had become a permanent fixture on their lawn simply because they didn't have the cash for gas, insurance, or a small repair that was needed to run the vehicle. But they also didn't worry about it either. And here I am, nearly crying because my car "needs" a fill up and I know I'll be "paying" for it with my credit card.
As Americans, nearly every single one of us are in the top 1% in the world when it comes to wealth. Yes I said top 1%. And even the poorest tier of Americans are still richer than 70% of the world. All we know and all we see is wealth in the U.S. By default, it dirties our perspective of what 'wealth' really is. The glasses we view the world through sometimes trick us into thinking we're seeing clearly. I think, I need to fix my car that's still running, I need to have a new vacuum cleaner, I need to finish rehabbing my bathroom now, and I need to fill up my gas tank because it's on 'E'. I'm slowly (and sometimes stubbornly) beginning to realize that it's my Life Perspective Glasses that have gotten dirty and could use a good cleaning.
What is really necessary to my family's survival and growth is not what I sometimes see as necessary. We need a roof over our heads--check, balanced meals--check, clean water--check, and warm clothes--check. Most other things are a LUXURY. I am not entitled to non-necessities even if I think I am--even if everyone around me has those things that I wish I had to make my life simpler or more comfortable.
I recently read a quote that says, "we call it sacrifice when we go without the things our grandparents never even heard of." How true it is--such different glasses we view the world through than just a few generations ago did.
I don't think it's possible for me to ever view the world without having at least a slightly skewed perspective. I am who I am, I live where I live, and I was raised how I was raised. In the meantime, I'm going to get off my pity pot, give my glasses a good cleaning, and try to live my life like the blessing that it is. That just might mean we'll have to live for a while with a partially finished bathroom (which admittedly, reminds me of "home" in Belize anyway). I'm sure it will also mean that my glasses will need to be cleaned over and over and over and over...but as long as I stop to give them a good cleaning once in a while, I think life will be a lot more clear to me--and I think I'll possess a far greater amount of contentment to boot.
After returning to the US, now nearly 9 months ago, I've realized how much and how easily those glasses can affect how I view the world. A year ago my family and I were living on less money than we are now yet, we were wealthy by our community's standards. In fact, there were times when I would feel embarrassed by my family's apparent wealth. If we needed something, I mean really needed it, we could purchase it. Yet, somehow it amazes me how little we did in fact need when we lived in Belize. I sure do seem to think I need a lot more things now.
Since we've been back I realize how much I've grown accustomed to be surrounded by wealth here. I live in a community in St. Louis that is comprised mainly of middle to lower middle class people. We have a community food pantry about 1 mile down the road. Wealthy? Huh? Middle and lower middle class don't sound wealthy to me.
We are a single income family of 7 surviving on a teacher's salary. Our budget is TIGHT. I look at our bills this month and they just don't match up with our income. I've already found myself back in the routine of feeling "poor." We need a new vacuum cleaner because the used one we recently purchased broke. The check engine light has been on in one of our cars for two weeks now. We're rehabbing our 80 year old bathroom and we've run out of funds to finish it right now. Whoa is me! Tuesday I found myself nearly brought to tears when I saw the fuel light pop up on my car--$75 for a refill. And then as I headed right for the gas station it occurred to me--if I were in Belize and I needed gas for my car but didn't have the cash to fill up what would I do? I'd do what everyone else of the minority of who are blessed to even own a vehicle in Belize would do--I'd shrug my shoulders, pull out my wad of cash and coins that I did have, and fill my tank with a few gallons of gas. End of story, no fretting, move on. There were Belizeans all over town whose car had become a permanent fixture on their lawn simply because they didn't have the cash for gas, insurance, or a small repair that was needed to run the vehicle. But they also didn't worry about it either. And here I am, nearly crying because my car "needs" a fill up and I know I'll be "paying" for it with my credit card.
As Americans, nearly every single one of us are in the top 1% in the world when it comes to wealth. Yes I said top 1%. And even the poorest tier of Americans are still richer than 70% of the world. All we know and all we see is wealth in the U.S. By default, it dirties our perspective of what 'wealth' really is. The glasses we view the world through sometimes trick us into thinking we're seeing clearly. I think, I need to fix my car that's still running, I need to have a new vacuum cleaner, I need to finish rehabbing my bathroom now, and I need to fill up my gas tank because it's on 'E'. I'm slowly (and sometimes stubbornly) beginning to realize that it's my Life Perspective Glasses that have gotten dirty and could use a good cleaning.
What is really necessary to my family's survival and growth is not what I sometimes see as necessary. We need a roof over our heads--check, balanced meals--check, clean water--check, and warm clothes--check. Most other things are a LUXURY. I am not entitled to non-necessities even if I think I am--even if everyone around me has those things that I wish I had to make my life simpler or more comfortable.
I recently read a quote that says, "we call it sacrifice when we go without the things our grandparents never even heard of." How true it is--such different glasses we view the world through than just a few generations ago did.
I don't think it's possible for me to ever view the world without having at least a slightly skewed perspective. I am who I am, I live where I live, and I was raised how I was raised. In the meantime, I'm going to get off my pity pot, give my glasses a good cleaning, and try to live my life like the blessing that it is. That just might mean we'll have to live for a while with a partially finished bathroom (which admittedly, reminds me of "home" in Belize anyway). I'm sure it will also mean that my glasses will need to be cleaned over and over and over and over...but as long as I stop to give them a good cleaning once in a while, I think life will be a lot more clear to me--and I think I'll possess a far greater amount of contentment to boot.
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